I'm Back!

Hello!

I know it's been a while. I've been working a lot the last couple of months, and haven't had much time to blog. I probably could have created some posts, but they would have likely been stress-induced whiny gripe-fests, and it's best that I've spared you all that. (Sadly my family and friends haven't been spared - but they still love me!)

In addition to teaching like crazy, I've also been helping to direct a kids' play at my church. This weekend we put on two performances, and they were awesome! In practices we were really worried about how things would turn out. Trying to get 30 kids, many of whom are under the age of 7, to sit still was a big challenge. But throw an audience in front of them and a spotlight and even the squirmiest of the bunch stood still and followed directions. They looked well-prepared, sang their hearts out and performed their parts awesomely. I'm so proud of them!

I hope to keep this blog up better in the future. Next post: Reasons Why I Weep for the Future.

Where in the World is Carmen San Diego?

I've been gone a while, I know. And my name isn't Carmen. But I loved that game, and the show. Even though I'm not very good at geography.

It's been busy. Went to Newfoundland in August for a wedding. It was a pretty awesome trip. I got to hang out with my family, see some whales and dolphins, and a bunch of ice bergs. And there was some free ice cream too. Gotta love free ice cream!

So, we kicked of the school year 3 weeks ago and it's been a crazy busy life since. Some days I have to remind myself to stop and have a meal, because I'm so busy I sometimes forget! I have some pretty awesome students this year, and have quite the variety in my classes. I've been having a great time decorating my class, teaching, and getting to know my students. They probably think I'm crazy, but that's ok. It  helps the time pass quickly.

Thinking of posting some of the joys of teaching one of these days. Some stuff that happens in my classroom is hilarious! We shall see about that one though.

On the Positive Side of things...

I can be pretty pessimistic sometimes, but lately I've made more effort to think positively. Like today. I'm laid off for the summer and submitted an EI claim. With my last report I had to call in to clarify some information.

FYI - calling the EI reporting service is VERY annoying. You call, hit 0 to speak with an operator and some recording tells you there are too many calls and to try again later. You are disconnected and have to call back. You may call back and get a busy signal. Eventually, you will call and be put on hold for a long time.

The fun part about being on hold is that every minute the cheesy hold music is interrupted so a recording can tell you that you are still on hold and to keep waiting as an available representative will get to you ASAP. The best part is every time you hear the pause in the music, you excitedly hope you have finally gotten someone only to have all hope dashed as you realize it's that stupid recording again.

Finally, you reach someone. This is where things get better for me. The person I spoke to cleared up the issue with my report, was kind, answered my questions and even looked up information about the status of my application when she didn't have to. This was awesome. While the waiting was not so much fun, I was very impressed by the service I got. So that's my not-so-pessimistic outlook for today. :)

It's not them, it's you

One thing I've noticed is how cyclic problems can be for some people. They can change homes, friends, schools, workplaces, etc. yet encounter the same difficulties over and over. I know this because their griping makes its way onto my Facebook newsfeed. If you find you're always dealing with the same problems, here's some perspective to consider:

It's you. The problem likely lies with you, in some way. If no matter who is in your life at the time, you encounter the same problems, then you are the constant factor in the situation so you are what needs to change. Either you need to be more careful about the friends you choose, you  need to change your environment or attitude, or you need to handle situations differently.

My advice: change something, or quit griping.

It may seem harsh, but this is advice I'm giving myself. It's tough, as griping often seems easier than actually DOING something about a situation, but in the long run it's for the best.

Short Thought - Life

I find when I get together with friends, we spend time talking about what's happened recently. This is normal, of course, but sometimes I find I don't have much material to choose from. For example, when I get together with a few different friends at different times, I have to share the same stories with each of them because I don't have enough material. I realize I spend a lot of time talking about things, but not a lot of time doing things.  My goal is to spend less time talking about my life, and more time living it.

Short Thought - Friendships

If you try to surround yourself only by people that are exactly like you, how will you ever change or grow as a person? When someone disagrees with me, I find I am forced to rethink my position. In the end, I am either stronger in my conviction or realize I am wrong and make a necessary change. This is what has helped me grow as a person, and has helped me become more compassionate towards people.

Basically, surround yourself with people whom you share common ground with, but those who may differ from you in some ways. They will understand you and challenge you to try new things all at the same time.

Tamara's Tips: Killing Bugs

It's summer. If not able to enjoy the warm weather (on a beach, or poolside perhaps), people tend to hang out indoors in a comfortable air conditioned environment. Apparently bugs are wise to our wise, and do their best to join us in our comfort. Hence, the fun (dread) I endure each summer as I battle the army of insect invaders trying to escape the heat.

When encountering a bug, many would think just squish it with a tissue or whack it with a shoe, and the job is done. I personally am not a fan of this approach. Some bugs are just too crunchy to squish with tissue, and that crunch creeps me out. And whether it is with tissue or a shoe, squishing a bug leaves bug guts behind. Gross.

Here are some of my solutions for ridding your home of insect invaders:

1) Spiders

I don't really like spiders, but I have found they tend to stay out of my way and have little interest in messing with me. The downside to allowing spiders to live is while they are efficient at killing bugs, they're not always good at disposing of the bodies. Yuck.

2) Household Spray Cleaners

Sometimes the spiders get lazy. Like this morning, when a spider just sat there at watched as this bug waltzed around my home. I had to take matters into my own hands. Keep the enemy at arms length. And clean up while you do it! Usually I grab the nearest spray cleaner, and spray the bug until it dies. Some bugs take longer to kick the bucket than others. Just be diligent. Once the target has been eliminated, dispose the body by burial at sea (flush that sucker down the toilet). I have found that hand sanitizer is also effective, and the fact that it's a gel makes it difficult for the bug to escape your attack. The downside is that you have to get closer to the bug.

3) Trap and flush

If you are brave enough to deal with a live bug, get it to crawl onto a tissue and then quickly flush it down the toilet. This is good for slower moving bugs. Anything fast may crawl onto your skin. Don't use this method on fast bugs.

4) Get married

A spouse that is not afraid to kill bugs is the best thing anyone could ask for. I have been blessed in this way. I wouldn't say bug killing was a deal breaker, but it is important to me.

Math in my Sleep

The last few weeks I've been teaching summer school. I'm teaching a grade 12 math course, and all of the students in my class are taking the course for the first time around. It's been fun, for the most part, but I've been busy, busy busy! One day of summer school is like 4 classes (nearly one full week) of regular school, so each day I spend a few hours preparing for the upcoming lessons and assessments. Needless to say, I've got math on the brain almost constantly.

I've noticed in the past that the night (or a few nights) before something important  I'll often dream about the event (the first day of school, my wedding, an exam, etc.). Usually it's because the upcoming event is on my mind before I fall asleep, and influences my dreams.

Lately, I've been dreaming about math problems. In my dream I'll be trying to solve some sort of problem, and I'll wake up still trying to figure it out. Eventually I realize what I'm doing, change the subject in my brain and either get out of bed or go back to sleep. But these dreams concern me.

Dreams are a place where the impossible can happen, where you can be anything. And what do I dream about? Math. I dream of being a math geek. Not that this is a bad thing, but given that I'm a math geek in real life, it seems like a waste of good dreaming time.

Oh well. Asleep or awake, I'm a geek through and through. I guess I have to embrace it!

Voiceless

One thing I love about our society is that many in it seek justice and equality for others who have faced discrimination or hardship. I believe people are designed to love each other, and standing up for and with others when they face difficulty is an awesome way to show this love. It is great!

I believe that everyone should have the opportunity to live without fear, prejudice, harassment and should be granted the same opportunities. I believe that people should be able to have different beliefs, and should have the same opportunity to express their beliefs. It is here where I feel society is failing us.

Voices have been granted to many minority and special interest groups over the years, and this has been a good thing. But in some cases, it feels like to give one group a voice, another has been silenced. I find this is the case on many moral issues. Often times, if someone disagrees with a certain issue, they are labelled stupid, ignorant or hateful. Here's the deal - if someone disagrees with a choice that someone else makes, that doesn't mean they hate them. It means they believe that choice is wrong. They do not necessarily with anyone harm because they think differently. Do some people act that way? Yes, and they are generally present on both sides of any cause. Is that behaviour/attitude wrong? Of course!

Here's my concern. My concern is that someone cannot fully express their beliefs without being labelled a bigot, being told that it is because they hate others, or being harassed for it. Believing that to do a particular thing is wrong can mean only that you believe that particular thing is wrong. Instead of jumping on people the second they disagree with something that the majority or the media has picked up as a cause, listen to them. You may still disagree with them in the end, but hopefully you'll also see someone who will love others whether or not they agree on that issue with you. If that person expresses hate or behaviour that violates others, take action to stop that. I do not believe it is my right, or anyone else's, to be judgmental, or to treat others poorly based on differences. That's just stupid. There are some things people have in common, and there are differences, and we can love each other in either case.  But believing something is right or wrong does NOT imply hatred or a wish to do anyone harm. Please understand that.

Sometimes the moment some says "I believe _________ is right/wrong" others immediately think "they hate that group of people" or that they want to discriminate against a group of people, before the person has had any opportunity to talk about what they believe in detail. Is that fair? Is it fair to silence someone on the assumption that they feel a certain way or will treat someone a certain way, based on an opinion which has not, in fact, revealed such an attitude? For example, I have always believed that sex should occur within the context of marriage. This is something I chose for myself, and what I feel is right to do. I know people disagree with me, and I love people that do. My opinion doesn't cause me to treat others poorly, or hate them, or anything.

Sometimes it is scary for someone to disagree with something, or to express their beliefs, because they know or feel that they will be wrongfully judged for them. It is scary to say 'no' to an issue that society is currently saying 'yes' to, especially when you've seen such an angry reaction. I know I have felt scared from time to time. I have been in a group of people, and felt like if they knew my opinion on a matter, they would hate me or exclude me. And that isn't right. Basically, there are certain issues where if you don't agree, you are considered to hate others,  or to be stupid, when this may not be the case. And you are may be subject to hatred, ridicule or exclusion as a result. When one group is fighting to be heard, don't silence another in the process. I believe in the golden rule: treat others as you would like to be treated. I think we need to remember this, especially when we are in disagreement.

We need to fight for the rights of others, and continue to build a society where no one feels threatened because of their beliefs, ethnicity, or circumstances. And we all need to be willing to love one another, and to listen to one another whether we agree or not. When someone violates another, do something about it. When someone thinks differently, and yet still manages to love and respect others, please don't exclude them or mistreat them. Don't jump to conclusions unfairly, and don't silence someone because they think differently from you. We ALL deserve a voice, and we all have a responsibility to use our voice carefully. Hold each other accountable to that, and agree to disagree when necessary.

Goodbye, Teeka

Earlier this week, we said goodbye to our 12 year old shih-tzu, Teeka (full name Teeka Laqueesha Verdelle Isho - yeah, my family is awesome with the middle names). Over the past couple of years, her health was getting worse. She'd gained a lot of weight, and her legs were getting weaker and bowed so that she didn't walk much (but somehow managed to run at the speed of light if food was dropped - this is still a mystery to me). We found out this was because she had cushings disease. While treatment helped her hair grow back, and stopped the progression somewhat, her health deteriorated. She had cataracts, kidney problems and was generally weak. Last weekend she stopped eating and drinking, had a fever, and a few seizures. We knew it was time.

I went with my mother to the vet to have Teeka put down. I loved Teeka, but since I didn't live with her daily anymore I knew I wouldn't be in as rough shape as my mom. And I didn't want her driving alone to the vet with Teeka, and driving home alone without her afterward. I figured that would be too tough to do alone. It was strange. In the moments leading up to the final injection that would end her life, we felt peaceful. But once she was gone there was a bit of a shock. Reality sunk in that we wouldn't have her to hug, snuggle with or enjoy anymore.

Teeka was a dog full of personality (and attitude). I first met her when she was only a few days old, and was small enough to fit in the palm of my hand. We knew the breeder that we got her from, and visited her before we took her home. Originally we were thinking of taking the runt home, but when the breeder wanted the runt we chose Teeka. And we do not regret it one bit! Her facial expressions seemed to say exactly what she was thinking (many times it was "You're an idiot"). She wasn't always the most well behaved, but this was because she was protective of her family, especially my dad. And when it was just you and her, she could be so very lovable and charming.

I remember feeling sick a few times, and Teeka sat with me until I started feeling better. She was definitely one to offer comfort, and we think part of the reason she was so attached to my father was because he was grieving the loss of his sister when we first got Teeka, and she sensed that and drew close to him as a result. One of the reason I love dogs is they seem to care about how you feel, and respond accordingly. It's pretty awesome.

Teeka was also clever. When she was a puppy and she would take something she wasn't supposed to have, it was adorable to see what she'd do to hide the prohibited item (usually covering it with her paws and face when we were around). She learned many tricks, including sit, stay, dance, walk (on two feet), pray, roll over,   and praise the Lord (standing and raising front paws).

When we got our second dog, Daffy Petunia Ownie Isho, Teeka wasn't too thrilled. She didn't like sharing the attention or her stuff with Daffy. But when Daffy had a cough followed by an injury, Teeka became a little more interested in her, and a bond formed. They would continue to fight over food, my dad, and for no reason at all. In fact, they would fight over food, but each would not eat unless the other was present. It was a can't live with you, can't live without you kind of situation. Sometimes the fights consisted of growling and this strange, high pitch noice made by Daffy. And sometimes they were snarling brawls. As time wore on, Daffy was usually the winner, and Teeka was the one to cool off quickly (Daffy wanted to finish the fight - Teeka didn't care how it ended).

Daffy knew something was wrong the morning that we put Teeka down. She snuggled with her, which was unusual. The dogs respected each other's space. I hope Daffy is dealing with the loss well, and that she understands. The relationship between the two dogs was one of the most entertaining things about them, and I'll miss that.

My first dog has passed away. It's sad. I wish they could live longer. I know some people think "It's just a dog!". But dogs are more than just some other species, they become part of your family.

Teeka, we miss you. We loved you from your birth on January 29, 1999 until your death on June 21, 2011.

If you have to ask... don't.

I like my privacy. I'm not super secretive, and I'll share information my friends and those I trust and care about. If someone is my friend, they will know about job opportunities, success of my relationships, pregnancies, home ownership, and the like. They won't have to ask about these things, because I'll tell them about it as it happens. That's what friendship is about. Sharing personal stuff.

No, I'm not pregnant, buying a house or getting a new job. I just want to make that clear before I continue. This post is in no way intended as an announcement of some major life change. As far as I can tell, my life will be the same for the next while.

Here's the deal - it drives me crazy when people ask me about the above mentioned things. Usually, the people who are asking are acquaintances. People I talk to superficially on occasion, who know me through a friend, or go to the same church as me. Most of the people that ask these things know very little about my personality, my day-to-day life, my likes, interests, friends, etc. Yet they feel it is ok for them to ask very personal questions. And in the past I've felt clueless as to how to respond. I may not want to answer truthfully, because it is information I'm not ready to make public. But I don't like to lie. That creates a problem. Even if the answer is no, I feel like my willingness to respond reinforces the idea that such questions are ok to ask, when they are not. I don't want to give the wrong impression. And declining to answer can come off as rude, or offend someone, and I don't want to be a jerk (although others don't seem to mind prying into my personal business, I'm pretty sure I'll come off as the jerk no matter what). So, it feels like I lose no matter what. Bummer.

If I had my way, here's how I'd like to respond to some of the questions I get (or have gotten asked).

Q: So, when are you going to have a baby?

A: I don't know. How's your sex life?

See, that's what a pregnancy question is. It's about my sex life. Maybe not about the sex itself, but the product of it. That's REALLY personal. Also, for all you know the woman you are asking could be trying and having difficulty, or had a miscarriage recently, or could be struggling with whether or not they will ever have a child. It just adds more pain when you're going through some reproductive issue and someone who isn't close enough to you to know these things demands that you talk about your fertility. I don't care if it is well-intentioned, it's a personal matter and just plain inappropriate to be asking about it. Don't. 


Q: So, when are you getting engaged/married? (I'm married now so I don't really get asked this one much anymore).

A: When someone asks me.

I was only really asked this question after being with Alex for a few years, so most people knew we were serious. I usually answered this, although I probably shouldn't have. Many times I explained that one or both of us was still in school, so we kind of needed to have a full time job in order to pull off a wedding and living expenses. You'd think that would be obvious, but apparently it isn't. But really, my financial or personal reasons for not yet being engaged are not your business. If my friends ever asked about this, it was likely following something I said to them regarding marriage or the future. And if I bring it up, I think it's ok for you to ask for an update. If I wouldn't tell you about it otherwise, DON'T ASK! I know people who have been single, not dating anyone at the time or even recently, who have been asked this question. Like you can just get married at will. Seriously, it's  a stupid question.


Q: When are you buying a house?

A: When I have enough money. Care to make a donation?

This one isn't so bad. It doesn't bother me that much, but it may bother others. Basically, house ownership boils down to how much money you have. And asking someone about how much money they have is definitely not appropriate. So, it's a good idea to steer clear of this one.




To summarize: if I want you to know about the very personal and important events in my life, I'll tell you. Because I WANT you to know. So if you have to ask, don't. And if you do, don't be offended when I politely decline to answer. Thanks!

P.S. It is ESPECIALLY inappropriate to ask me (or others) these things on Facebook. Because not only do I have the problem of figuring how to respond without looking like a complete jerk, other people will see the question, and possibly assume it has some merit. And that is how rumors start, folks.

If I Ruled the World....

Ok, maybe not the world. I just have lots of ideas about how to do things differently. I think this is because I spend a lot of time driving, alone in my car with my strange thoughts. Anyway, below is a list of how I think I can make things more awesome.

1) Drive-thrus

One thing I've noticed is that the menu options are placed behind the speaker. You cannot read the menu unless you are at the speaker. And usually once you've made it there the attendant is asking for your order. If you have the menu memorized and are absolutely certain of what you want, then no problem. But what if you have an idea, but aren't certain?

My idea: put the menu before the speaker, so that you can read it before you have to order. Plus, it gives you something to look at if you have to wait before you order.

2) Grocery stores

This one I just thought of today. At the grocery store, the pin pad is near the end of the conveyor belt. But when it's time to pay, the customer is usually further down bagging groceries. Why not put the pin pad there? It'll save time, because you won't have to move around to go pay. And, while you're waiting for the transaction to be completed, you can keep bagging. Win-win!

3) Public Washrooms

The doors should swing out. They always swing in, unless it's a wheelchair accessible stall. Some stalls are small, so when you're on the inside and need to open the door to get out, you either have to hit yourself with the door or straddle the toilet. Which can lead to tripping and falling onto yucky surfaces. There's probably a good reason as to why the doors swing in. Maybe so in an emergency, or when dramatic effect is needed, the doors can be kicked in. That's the only good reason I can come up with...

So, those are my suggestions. If they inspire you to draft petitions and make changes, and therefore improve life as we all know it, so be it. I'll be your first signature!

Coming Soon: Tamara's Tips for Being Less of a Jerk.

This will be a series that will consist of my tips for being less of a jerk at work, on the bus, public places, school, and possibly more.

Tamara's Journey to Getting Into Shape - Part 1

No, I did not do Zumba Gold. I will not become SWISBOB (She Who Is Shamed by Old Bitties). But today, as I was not scheduled to work, I decided to finally get off my butt and go to the gym. 

You see, I've had a gym membership for a little more than 4 years. I've gone through phases of going to the gym regularly, but I've had commitment issues. During the last few months, my activity level has decreased, I've been sleeping poorly and feeling like junk. And, for the last few months, I've been saying I need more activity to keep me healthy and feeling better (and if I'm lucky, maybe a little slimmer too!). So I think I've finally begun to commit to it (I didn't have to work and got out of bed before 10 am - that's pretty solid proof). 

Today, I went to Body Jam. I had gone once before (4 years ago) and it was fun. I was also 4 years younger, probably 15 - 20 pounds lighter and generally in better shape. If you have no sweet clue what Body Jam is, it's a class that uses dancing for exercise. So today I went. I was nervous, because it's about 2 months into the class schedule and I was imaging a room full of people who've been taking the class for 2 months now and know the choreography, and I'm going to look like a dork. In front of strangers. Who may judge me, and will definitely see how easily I perspire. But alas, I confronted my fears and showed up.

There were four other people there besides me: Pretty Young Thang 1, Pretty Young Thang 2, Old Bitty and SuperMom. I don't really know if the last one was a mom, but she struck me as a woman in her 30s or 40s, with a couple of kids, an SUV, loads of organizational skills and tons of activities to keep her busy.

It turned out that PYT 1 & 2 were first timers like me, so I felt a little better. When class started, there were a few times that it took me a couple of times to get a move down, but I was keeping up. From my glances at myself in the mirror, I didn't look terribly out of place or anything, so I felt ok. PYT 1 seemed like she had dance experience, which made me feel slightly inferior. But I was smart and chose a spot behind a big pillar so I was safe from criticism. 

As I'm dancing my heart out (and my butt off), my heart rate increase, I'm sweating like nobody's business, and my face is splotchy and red. Basically, I'm SUPER attractive at this point, and thinking I hope class is almost over because if I keep dancing I may die right here. I look at the clock. Fifteen minutes had passed. FIFTEEN FREAKIN MINUTES!!! My heart felt like it might explode, and there were still 45 minutes left of this torture (fun, I mean fun!). I would not quit. I persevered.

More time passes. After 30 minutes into the class, Old Bitty leaves. I have outlasted 1 person. YEA! In case you didn't know, I consider EVERYTHING a competition. Not long after, SuperMom is on her way. Woo-hoo! It's just me and the Pretty Young Thangs.

Around the 45 minute mark, I learn exactly how out of shape I am. Still red in the face, my shirt is now soaked, and my blood is pumping harder than before. Feelings of impending doom pass over me. I fear I may drop to the floor in cardiac arrest. Ok, that's an exaggeration. But I did feel like I might throw up. I had to ease up. I had lost. I could not outlast PYT 1 & 2, and I could dance harder, better, faster, & stronger than them. (N-n-now that that don't kill me, can only make me stronger - sorry, I'm having a Kanye moment). But I did not just leave. I may have been out danced by the Pretty Young Thangs, but  I was NOT going to drop out like an old woman. So I stuck around. I couldn't dance the rest of the time, so I divided my time between pacing (staying still would have wreaked havoc on my body as my heartbeat would have suddenly slowed down), and joining in when I could.

In the change room I commented to another member that I understood now why they had a defibrillator on site. I think I scared her. She was all "Do you want me to get someone? Do you need me to get you water". Apparently my joke was lost on her. I've got to be more clear with my 

So, Body Jam kicked my butt. But this is not the end for me and my nemesis. I WILL return, and I WILL last to the end without having a near-death experience. Ha!

One of the reasons why my husband is awesome...

I enter the kitchen to find Alex standing over an open jar of Nutella, holding a spoon.

Me: What are you doing?

Alex uncurls his other hand, revealing several almonds.

Alex: I'm having chocolate covered almonds!

What a brilliant mind! :) How could I NOT love him?

He didn't share though...

My name is Swisbob....

Yesterday I was looking through the group exercise classes at my gym, hoping for one that started at a decent time. There are a few locations I could go to, so I was checking the schedules for each one. Below is a recreation of a conversation I had with my husband about it, and the story of my new name.

Me: So I'm looking at the class schedules. I wanted to go to Zumba, but they didn't have a class for today that started at a good time. Then I see Zumba Gold, which started at 5:00. I was trying to figure out what Zumba Gold was. I thought maybe it was super Zumba, or more advanced or something. Turns out it's for baby boomers.

Alex: You should have gone! That would have been fun.

Me: No way! Not when all the old bitties there would have been going for weeks and would be better than me. I would have to change my name to She-who-is-shamed-by-old-bitties.

Alex: Swisbob! Your name could be Swisbob. I'm going to call you that from now on.

Sadly, it took me like 30 seconds to figure out what the heck Swisbob was...

I do know that baby boomers aren't necessarily old bitties. Please don't take offense! I was just being silly.

Tamara's Test Taking Tips

From the title, you may have guessed that I like alliteration. Yes, it is a wonderful thing. Anyway, from time to time I give my students test tips, and I feel I should record them. Then maybe publish them and sell them for a small profit. Just kidding! :) Anyway, they're practical, one (or more) may rhyme. If you have any that I should add leave them in the comments!

1. Study, sleep, eat.
   
   All-nighters are not the best idea. While the extra time may allow you to cram a few more facts into your memory, being tired during the test will mess up your ability to focus, problem solve or communicate as best as you can. Some have pulled all-nighters for subjects that involve a lot of factual recall, but my subject is math. And with math, you need to be able to think, not spit out memorized facts. Thinking is hard when you're tired, or hungry. So have a good breakfast too (something easy on the stomach - a nervous stomach plus bad food can be a BAD thing going into a test).
   
2. Do not erase, unless you can replace.
   
   I've seen students erase an answer (some which were correct) and put nothing in its place. Leaving a question blank leaves absolutely no opportunity for the teacher to reward any marks. So unless you have something else to write down, don't erase the answer. You won't be penalized if it's wrong, and you may get partial or full credit. You have nothing to lose!
   
3. ANSWER ALL MULTIPLE CHOICE, TRUE/FALSE OR MATCHING QUESTIONS!
   
   Notice this rule is in all caps. That is because this is the most frustrating rule I've seen students break. In the situations listed above, the correct answer is sitting in front of you. Why leave it blank when there is a good chance you'll get it right? It's just plain silly to leave it blank.
   
   For example, a typical multiple choice question has four options. That leaves a 25% probability that the answer you pick is correct. The probability not answering and getting the question right is 0%. Which is better? Exactly - guess if you must but do not leave blank! Be educated with your guess, and use some reasoning if you can - this may increase the likelihood of being right. Your friends Eeny, Meeny, Miney and Moe are not your best bet here, but may be called upon if you are absolutely desperate.
   
4. Show all of your work, whether confident or not!
   
   In math, many questions are assessed on the method the student uses AND the correct answer. A correct answer alone does not earn you all of the marks. Show or discuss whatever it was that you did to come up with the answer, whether you are confident in it or not. It may earn you partial credit.
   
   Many kids can punch stuff into a calculator and don't know what to show for their work. Here's what you do: whatever you told the calculator to do, write down. That is how you show your work. Because then, if your answer is wrong due to a typo, having written your work down may save you a few marks if you had the right idea.
   
   
5. Avoid suspicious looking behaviour.
   
   Teachers will penalize cheating. Make sure you don't look like you are doing it. Do not go through your bag to find something during a test, even if it's just an eraser. You could be totally innocent, but you could also be up to something. Your teacher will be suspicious, and may rightfully act upon suspicions in away that are not in your favour.
   
   To avoid looking like a cheater do the following:
   - don't cheat
   -don't lift your paper where others can read
   - have all the materials you need out on your desk before the test starts
   - do not speak/communicate with any other students at all
   - do not touch/look at/fantasize about your cell phone
   - don't hide your calculator in your desk the way you do a cell phone when using it
   - if you stare off into space in order to think, use a safe stare-spot (i.e. the ceiling, the front of the room, something the teacher will be able to tell without a doubt is not another student's test)
   - if you forgot something in your bag that you need, first call your teacher over and ask if you can get while they are watching - this makes us secure that your intentions are pure

Those are all the tips I can think of right now. I'll add more when I think of them.

*EDIT

6. Do not hand in your test with blank questions if you still have time - you never know when an answer will suddenly hit you. And once you hand in your test, you can't get it back!

I'll Let You in on a Little Secret...

Getting a teaching degree does not guarantee you a job right away, in the school district closest to you, in your preferred subject, or a job at all. For some reason, many people seem to think that it does (based on the questions I get asked). People seem to think that there is an abundance of teaching jobs at all levels and for all subjects (although I could probably have 10 jobs if I could teach French), and that by my own choosing I can have the very one I want. Not true.

I'm not sure WHY people think this way - who gets to pick their own job simply by wanting it, or being qualified for it? Who gets to walk up to the person responsible for hiring wherever it is they want to work and say "Hey, I'm going to work here. When do I start?" No job is procured this way (unless you're starting your own business).

So here are my responses to the questions/comments I often receive when forced to discuss my career.

Note: I don't actually say these things to people. This is what I wish I could say, with some rationale for it.

Q: Are you teaching full-time?

A: Nope, I'm a substitute teacher.

This is where people start to pity me, as if being a substitute leaves me no chance of ever being a 'real' teacher. I AM a real teacher. The fact that I'm working for a board gives me a leg up on competition when applying for contract jobs. Don't feel sorry for me, because I don't feel sorry for myself.

P.S. Supply teachers don't have to do any prep, or any marking, and if they have a really difficult class they can choose to never see them again. Not a bad deal! Sure, the work is not regular but once you get exposure you can pretty much work as much or as little as you want. Especially if you are good at what you do - teachers will actually request you specifically instead of playing the supply teacher lottery.


Q: So where do you teach?

A: Simcoe County. You know, the Barrie area, a about an hour (or more) away from here.

This is where people find it incredulous that I commute an hour for my job. Even people that live in Barrie, and even though many people in that area are commuting to Toronto (which is a nasty commute that no one seems to thing is out of the ordinary). I have a relatively traffic-and-accident-free ride, with some pretty nice scenery. It is long, but not frustrating. And I get to drive really fast! :)


Here comes my favourite question:


Q: Why don't you work for (whatever school board is not too far away)?

A: Because given these high gas prices I just want to spend, spend, spend by driving approximately 160 km (total) every day that I work. Paying for gas is good fun and I enjoy spending my money on it, rather than saving for a house, new lap top, sewing machine or other stuff I'd like to have but can't yet purchase.

Ok, I don't actually say that. But I think it's a pretty dumb question. Why would I willingly work far away from home if opportunities nearby were available? Really? Demographics may be different in these areas, but the challenges are similar. I'm not with my current board because it's a special place I just MUST work in. I'm there because it's the board that hired me and I'd rather commute to gain experience in my field than work closer to home at a job I'd rather not do and did not spend years educating myself for. 


Q: I know so-and-so who's a teacher. Maybe they can help you get a job.

A: Maybe.

This question isn't so bad. I would like to point out that teachers don't hire other teachers. Unless the person is a principal or works for human resources of that board, they cannot guarantee anything. A teacher can only refer me to a principal, and in some boards a principal can either interview me or refer me to human resources. But, honestly, you know this person and I do not. Getting me in touch with them is not a quick-fix (so don't expect the connection to result in a job immediately). I only feel right if someone who can actually vouch for my teaching abilities, knowledge of curriculum and other practices related to teaching, and my character gives me a referral. I don't feel comfortable with someone saying things about me they do not know for themselves, and feel that people shouldn't do that (I wouldn't). It can put them in an awkward position. This person will have to take time to get to know me in order to help me out. If they are willing, and if this is possible, fantastic. Just don't assume this is the case.

Q: Why don't you go to schools and give them your resume and talk to the principal?

A: I don't do this because for some boards, you are actually discouraged from doing this. Yes, it works for some people, or has in the past. However, many times due to hiring procedures in which principals are not allowed to accept resumes this way, you are turned away. I would do this if it felt appropriate to do so, however interrupting a very busy administrator to look at my resume when I've been instructed not to do so in the first place, and regardless of whether they are  hiring or not doesn't seem like a good idea. In some fields, this is how you get jobs. But not all fields are the same. Please be assured that I am looking into how I should be applying for jobs by following the advice given to me by my teachers' college, speaking with colleagues and following the instructions that school boards provide me with.

Q: Why don't you teach English overseas? You're young, you should travel!

A: If I wanted to teach English, I would have studied to be an English teacher. If I wanted to work overseas, that's what I'd be trying to do. Yes, I'm young. I'm also connected to family and friends here, which I find quite valuable, and don't feel like leaving them for an extended period of time because the perception our society has of young people is that our experiences are more valuable when they happen overseas. Yep, there are places I want to go, on vacation, just like you. Other than that, I'm happy where I am.

I actually found this question interesting when I was still unmarried, because I'm just thinking why people think it's a good idea for me to take off by myself to a country I know little about, don't speak the language, and know no one. Yes, I can make friends, learn the customs, etc. But living an working in a country isn't the same as going on vacation there - you may not have a guide to warn you of dangers of which you are unaware, or to even help you function as a member of society. I know of people who have done this and faced some pretty traumatic experiences as a result. It can be an awesome experience for some people, but please do not assume it is a good experience for ALL people. 


Q: Well, I'm sure you're a great teacher. You'll find something soon!

A: Yes, I like to think I'm a pretty good teacher (not experienced enough for greatness yet, I don't think). And I hope so too!

I'll admit this compliment kind of bugs me, because I can only partially appreciate it. I appreciate that based on my personality and character this person thinks I'm good at what I do, however, I cannot take it as more than that - a compliment about my personality. It does not really build up my perception of myself as a teacher, as the person giving me the compliment has not seen me teach and knows nothing of my qualifications. When this compliment comes from a student, colleague or supervisor, then I'm ecstatic.

By now you probably think of me as some ogre who can't appreciate the good intentions of others, or the fact that they mean well. It's not that I don't appreciate that people think good things about me, or want good things for me. But here's the deal: a lot of these questions are coming from people I'm only acquaintances with. I'm forced to explain myself, and sometimes it feels like even validate myself, to people who know little about me. The worst time I had with this situation was the six months I was unemployed following a pretty difficult first year of teaching at a private school. In addition to second guessing myself based on the tough year I had,  I had several people asking me about whether I had a job, and why I didn't have a job, and so on on a regular basis. Basically, several times a week I was reminded that I was jobless and that the resumes I was sending out were often being overlooked.

I say these things to make people aware of what it feels like to be in my shoes, and so maybe they can be a little more sensitive. When you meet a teacher, or prospective teacher, don't grill them with questions about why they don't yet have their dream job. If you have some useful knowledge or advice (because you actually know something about how to get a teaching job, no guesses please!), send it my way. If not, just wish me well and leave it at that.

Ok, my rant is over now!

I Spend Too Much Time Thinking About Commercials

You know how you can see/hear a commercial (tv or radio) so much that you have the song memorized? Have you ever caught yourself idly humming/singing one of these songs? I have. Interestingly enough, I don't think I've ever sang or thought of the jingles at a relevant moment (i.e. the iTravel2000.com jingle while I'm booking a flight or vacation). But alas, due to my television watching and radio listening, these sneaky little songs get trapped in my mind, and from time to time they torment me by playing on repeat in my head for far too long. I'll even sing them out loud sometimes. I know. It's messed up.

One commercial that bugs me nearly every time I see it is the Home Hardware commercial. Specifically the "Homeowners helping homeowners". Honestly these are the thoughts I have when I hear that:

If I wanted to work at home hardware, would they care that I rented?

If I want to shop there, would their employees suddenly refuse to serve me when it was learned that I do not, in fact, own a home?

Why do they promote themselves by sounding so stinkin' exclusive?

Now you may say, "It's just a catchy saying", "You're being ridiculous!", etc. And you'd be right.

But you see, my mind doesn't care that it's ridiculous. No, my mind bugs me with these thoughts and takes time to analyze this kind of stuff regardless of how pointless doing so is. Although, I will admit, I don't really want to shop at Home Hardware in part because of their commercial. So I guess my over analysis does have some use for my decision making.

There are some commercials I love. The old Marine Land commercial used to be a favourite. I can't think of any others at the moment. I just wanted to end on a more positive note.

Drive By

Yesterday some my husband and I got together with some friends. I was driving us there. As we turned onto the street of our friends' house, we saw some kids sitting on a front lawn with water guns (or some other toy gun). As we rolled by:

KID: aims toy gun right at us
ME: forms gun with right hand, aims and "pulls the trigger"
KID: Stunned
HUSBAND: Stunned, amused
ME: Kept rolling down the street, victorious


I'm a gangsta. =p

Anonymity & Generosity

Many times I have encountered people who boast about how generous they are with their money or their time. Sometimes I've probably done the same thing, even though it bugs me to no end. While trying to appear humble, or good, by recounting all the wonderful, selfless things they've done, when someone boast about something it counteracts the 'selflessness' they were trying to achieve. Basically, if it were truly a selfless act, they would do it anonymously. By seeking recognition or admiration of others, they are seeking a reward. And doing something in order to gain a reward isn't really selfless or generous, as it only serves to puff up the ego of the 'do-gooder'.

Good deeds should be done simply for the purpose of doing what is good or right, not for self-gain. As Christians, we believe that God will reward us in heaven for what we do here on Earth. And while that is the case, Jesus has reminded us that we need to have our hearts in the right place. 

In Matthew 6:1 - 4 (NCV) it says:

"Be careful! When you do good things, don't do them in front of people to be seen by them. If you do that, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven.

"When you give to the poor, don't be like the hypocrites. They blow trumpets in the synagogues and on the streets so that people will see them and honor them. I tell you the truth, those hypocrites already have their full reward. So when you give to the poor, don't let anyone know what you are doing. Your giving should be done in secret. Your Father can see what is done in secret, and he will reward you."

Now, you might say, this passage still mentions rewarding people for doing good, so how can doing good be selfless then? Here's the deal: people are generally wired to pursue immediate satisfaction and gratification. We want the benefits of our labour right away. While part of our motivation may be a reward from God, if someone does good only to get a reward, they'll likely give up when it doesn't show up right away. If someone does good because it is right, and they continue to do good things despite hardship or the lack of an immediate reward, their intentions are likely pure. You wouldn't stick it out that long for a reward when doing so can be very difficult at times (especially when you don't really know for certain what that reward will be or how long you'll be waiting for it).

I think being anonymous in giving, or failing to boast about good deeds, is what helps keep people humble. When people use good deeds to elevate their status or power, soon their pursuit will not be good things but rather how to continue to build themselves up. They'll be corrupted by that pursuit. It's hard because in being humble you may feel unappreciated, or even like you're being taken advantage of. But keep your focus on what it is you are trying to achieve. Look at the fruits of your labour - let what you are accomplishing be your motivation, not recognition. Many times the reward we receive is how we and others are changed (for the better) as we continually humble ourselves, and the peace that comes with doing what is right.

Ill-gotten treasures have no lasting value, but righteousness delivers from death.  Proverbs 10:2 (NIV)

Stuff That Makes My Job Easier

It's my third year of my teaching career, and I've been working as a supply teacher for over a year now. This means I've been in several different schools and classrooms, and have covered classes for the many different streams (including Life Skills). Earlier this week while covering for two different special education teachers that were very prepared for my arrival, I got to thinking about all of the things a supply appreciates when preparing to supervise a bunch of students they've (possibly) never seen before.

In the lists below "you" refers to the regular teacher I am covering for. 

Stuff We Like:

1. A list of class rules.
   This helps me make decisions that are consistent with what would normally occur in the classroom on a regular day. I don't want chaos to ensue in your absence, or for you to be angry because of a decision I made in your absence that clashes with your style/preferences.
   
2. Handouts and equipment ready-to-go when we arrive, and detailed instructions on where to find needed supplies/equipment if it cannot be set aside for me.
   I may have very little time to familiarize myself with the school and the plan the regular teacher has left, which could make things such as photocopying handouts while managing to arrive to class on time difficult/impossible. In the case of unexpected illness, it may be difficult for the teacher to prepare things in advance, but usually another teacher in your department would be willing to lend a hand with this if you contact them with the request. Unless you've managed to get on the other teachers' bad side. Then, I feel sorry for you.
   
3. An extra copy of the attendance list and a copy of the seating plan (with students' pictures if possible).
   The attendance list usually leaves the classroom at some point during the period, so having an extra list to help keep track of who is who is very useful. A few teachers have actually left me seating plans that included students' pictures, which has been awesome. It makes it so much easier for me to identify any students that I had issues with, or to let you know about any kids who were absolutely wonderful (I actually do this - I like to give credit where it is due).
   
4. Important student information.
   Some students have special needs, and can be very sensitive to changes in routine.
   I need to know about them! When it comes down to the possibility of being hit, bitten, or having a student flee the classroom, it's best if I know how to avoid such situations, and how best to deal with them should they occur. If you don't have students with IEPs or safety plans, but just a kid that may be difficult or argumentative, it is also a good idea to warn me. I really don't want to trigger an aggressive incident, and would like to carefully pick my battles, so knowing in advance that a particular student may overreact to confrontation/intervention is very helpful.

Stuff we don't like:

1. When you leave a test.
   Many students, for some reason, are under the impression that a supply teachers are all blind/deaf/stupid. I'm sure some are, but most of us are competent. But because of this belief students hold, they often try to pull stuff during tests they wouldn't normally do if you were present. It's just a hassle for  me to deal with, can cause ugly confrontations and is especially frustrating because it is difficult for us to dole out a consequence you would find appropriate (because I don't necessarily know what YOU would do in that situation). Do us all a favour and postpone the test. Your students will appreciate the extra time to study, I will appreciate a hassle-free day.
   
2. When instructions are unclear/barely existent.
   Make it easy for me to understand what you want me to do! I want to be able to find the work you have left, and have your students complete it. Otherwise they get crazy!
   
3. When you expect us to teach a lesson to a class that doesn't even listen to YOU.
   Usually teachers will just leave work for students to complete, and I'll supervise and assist whenever possible. I actually prefer to work with students - I'm not the type of supply that just sits at the teacher's desk and does nothing. If you leave me a lesson to teach for a class that will be cooperative, I am very happy to teach the lesson. If you leave me a lesson to teach for a class that barely listens on a regular day, who are you trying to kid? You know they won't learn a thing, and I'll spend the time trying to quiet the class down after every sentence I speak. It's really a waste of everyone's time.

So, there you have it. If you are a regular teacher, I hope you consider some of the above the next time you are planning for an absence. If you are a supply, I'm sure you sympathize with me. And if you are a teacher candidate, you have been warned. This is likely what  you'll be facing the first couple years of your career.

I Love it When We're All on the Same Page

So for the last year or two, God has really put a lot of things on my heart. Some of them have been about reaching out to youth/young adults in difficult situations, and showing them Christ's love. I'm a very analytical person, which sometimes leads to me being judgmental, or being quick to draw conclusions without all the facts. Many times, after arriving to the wrong conclusion about somebody, I've been given the chance to get to know them better and realize the conclusions I'd jumped to were  wrong or seriously unfair. I'm grateful for these opportunities to remind myself "Judge ye not lest ye be judged", and as a result I have found myself wanting to minister to groups of people that I feel often get judged, generalized, and looked down upon. The cool thing is that a lot of the people around me have been feeling the same way, and have done things about it. I love that.

See, while I really want to make a difference in others' lives, sometimes I'm not quite sure how to go about it. What is awesome is that lately I've taken notice that when God has been stirring something in my heart, he's been doing the same with the people around me. And some of these people have the experience, creativity or means to get involved or make a difference, which are things that I don't possess in relation to the situation. It's an awesome feeling when you can get together with a friend, and together accomplish something good.

I'm not as bold as I'd like to be. I can be very self-conscious, and sometimes I am afraid of taking initiative with certain things for fear of public failure. I generally like to keep my failures to myself. I'm starting to realize that when I'm not successful, I need to learn from the situation rather than quit or beat myself up about it. And I need to resist the fear of trying again, because the only way I'll have any measure of success is by perseverance. But God, in His wisdom, has been gracious enough to surround me with friends that share my interests and concerns. He's given me a group of people that I can minister alongside, so that when one of us feels weak the others can hold them up with our strengths. There is less fear in something when you have someone beside you who is cheering for you to succeed, and who is experiencing the same things you are. I'm excited for the things to come, as I'll be able to grow in some of my abilities and put my giftings to good use.

If anyone is reading this, I just want to encourage you to really share the things you feel God placing in your heart, and the dreams and goals you have. It's very likely that you'll encounter people that share your passions and as a result get opportunities to do great things. God gives us friends not just to make us feel good, but to make up for the things we lack and to support us in our endeavours.

Pi Day and March Break

Pi day and the first day of March break coincided, making this one extra special! I'll be honest; although I've enjoyed math for a long time, I had not actually heard about pi day until my fourth year of university. for those that do not know what Pi Day is, I will explain. The constant pi (represented by the symbol π) represents the constant value you get by dividing the circumference of any circle by its own diameter. The value, rounded to two decimal places, is 3.14. March 14 is 3/14. Hence, Pi Day (Yay!).

Upon learning about Pi Day, I was excited about an excuse to pig out on pie and other round yummy foods, and share my nerdiness with friends and family. My sister and I celebrated this year. She mocks me for it, but does not hesitate to enjoy the pi. We had breakfast pi, and then s'mores pie later in the day. For my husband, I made apple pie (for the first time ever - and it was pretty good according to him). You probably don't care much about my adventures with pie, but, maybe a few poor quality pictures of my endeavours will charm you so much you'll want to lavish me with pie on March 14 next year? I can always dream.

Breakfast Pie - hashbrowns on the bottom, with scrambled eggs and bacon. Yum!

S'mores Pie - Graham cracker crust, milk chocolate filling and marshmallow fluff on top  :)

Apple Pie - The filling

Apple Pie with Top Crust

Apple Pie - Final Product

Radical Acts of Kindness - My Personal Challenge

There's a lot of stuff that's been going on lately - not just in my personal life but globally. Protests, natural disasters, crime, poverty, disease - lots of terrible things. I was reading posts about Japan, and I greatly appreciate how so many people care and are praying for those devastated by the earthquake and tsunami. It got me thinking about what I can do personally to help.

Sometimes when I see terrible things happening to others, I feel guilty about the time I spend on things I like, or focusing on my own happiness when others are miserable. I want to do more than just give money, or pray. Those are good things to do, but I want to actively help - actually DO something. I have no idea where to start, but I'm going to keep an eye out for opportunities (and any ideas you may have are welcome! Please share!).

I realized this - it is not bad for me to spend time on things that I enjoy, or to do things that make me happy. But when my focus is entirely on MY happiness, that is a problem. I need to daily take time to do things for others, things that will enrich their lives. I need to take my focus off of myself, and take time to put the needs of others before my own. I need to live more selflessly. It's a tough challenge, but I think I'm up for it. I've always tried to be polite, and act in kindness toward others, but I want to kick it up a notch. I don't want to do random acts of kindness - I INTEND to do these acts, and I want them to be RADICAL acts of kindness. I want to give in a way that is more extreme than what I've been doing, in a way that is sacrificial on my part. And I pray that more and more people will take it upon themselves to do the same - imagine the impact that would have!!!

I'm editing you!

So, um, I'm such a dork. I edit posts I read on facebook, twitter or blogs. I correct grammar, spelling and punctuation. I specifically think through the rules taught to me all through elementary and secondary school. Frequently, I become impressed with myself for recalling these rules so well.

Often, I am appalled at how poorly many people spell. It drives me nuts when I come across a run-on sentence that is 3 lines long and completely lacking punctuation. The punctuation issues especially bothers me, because without punctuation your statement or phrase can be interpreted (or misinterpreted) several ways. I prefer not to have to read what someone has written four or five times to make sure I've understood the intended message. I suppose I could just ignore such posts, which is technically possible, except I am a freak and I cannot just move on once I've come across it. I must decode the message!

Anyway, it scares me that high school students don't know/use the simple rules taught to them in elementary school. When a college or university student/grad cannot spell simple words (and I'm not talking about typos - I'm referring to misspelling) or cannot use the correct word from a group of homophones, I become very worried. It especially bothers me when the post-secondary educated person is majoring in English. It makes me livid!

Rules of spelling and grammar were not created by uptight people that want to control your life. They exist so that everyone can understand each other clearly. So please, try harder. The challenge is good for your brain, and it will give me peace of mind.

P.S. I know how dorky I am. No need to remind me in the comments!

P.P.S. I was extra careful in editing this post - I don't want to be caught making the same errors that bother me! You will be rewarded bonus points for finding errors and correctly identifying which rule is broken (or correct spelling if that is the case).

Walmart, I think you can do better!

So, as many of you know, in Toronto you must pay $0.05 per plastic bag in stores. This initiative is intended to cut down on the waste created by all those plastic bags that get thrown in the trash. Stores in other parts of the GTA have gotten in on the act too, and I have a lot of respect for it. I'm even getting better at remembering to bring my re-usable bags to stores, and I find future uses for plastic bags, because I don't like creating more garbage for our landfills than necessary.

So, a couple of days ago I was at Walmart and I bought a few items. I really only needed one bag (and would have had room to spare), yet I was given two. And I realized that whenever I visit Walmart and purchase more than a couple of small items, I'm given more bags than needed. And it bugs me!

First of all, it's just wasteful. While others are trying to reduce the waste created by these plastic bags, Walmart is throwing them away left, right and centre. Secondly, I don't like carrying a bunch of bags. It's more handles to hang on to. I often throw one bag inside the other, but still. It's just dumb.

So, Walmart, send your employees the message that it is OK to take advantage of the full capacity of each of your bags. I'm pretty sure your customers won't mind!

Hi!

Well, this post is just to get things started. I don't really have much to say right now - I suppose I'll just talk about myself a bit more!

I'm a teacher, and I love my job! Even though it can be frustrating, it feels great when you see that you've affected someone in a positive way, or helped them overcome some sort of challenge whether its academic or personal. The influence I can potentially have is incredible, and it's not something I take lightly. As much as I hope to encourage my students to become great students and people, they remind me to continue to improve on my weaknesses. They remind me to be considerate, refrain from judgement and to be patient (sometimes they REALLY test that one!).

I believe in God, and study the Bible in order to get to know Him better. I'm nowhere near perfect, and daily I confront things in myself I must work to change. The best part is I'm not alone in this pursuit, and that when I'm open to it, God changes me for the better. I want to be known as a woman who loves others unconditionally, and I want God to use me to show his love, especially to those who've been ignored or let down by those around them. I don't want my faith to be something I wear on a T-Shirt, broadcast obnoxiously or a 'religious' lifestyle. I want my faith to overflow into my actions daily, in the big things and small things. I want people to know what I believe, and Who I believe in by the way I treat them. I'm not exactly where I want to be in this pursuit, but I'm trusting God to mold me into the woman I want to be (and the one He wants me to be).

Well, that's all for now.